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♫ ♪Sad Song♪♫

Written 06/18/10

I  always have song/songs for every significant moment of my life. It was like, the song is written for me. Most describe what I am going through (my emotions) others interpret my desires, my hopes, my needs or my wants at that time. Yet, when I found one it never failed to amaze me. Mostly I didn't look them up they just presented itself one way or another.

Three months ago when Jed left for Dubai, I was looking for a radio station in the internet and there's this station that every time I tune in I heard the same song. I don't know if it’s some kind of a glitch or what. I recognized the artist and its one of my favorite and so I listened to the song. When I listen to a song I really listen to it, I try to understand the lyrics. The song is new to me and I don't know the title. It’s not the kind of song which you can hear the title on its lyrics over and over again. I really want to know the title so I can download it and listen to it without going to that glitch station.  Lucky I know the artist and look it up on YouTube. Viola! I got my song in just a minute. The song is Vanilla Twilight by Owl City. A song which I know everyone who’s in a long distance relationship can relate to. The song mesmerized me the first time I heard it. It described exactly how I feel during that time up until today, although I don't listen to it often these days. You see, I am so sad when I discovered it and I played it over and over again during that time. I am ok now but when I tried to listen to it sadness creeps over me again. It was like all the sadness I felt the day he left was in my heart again. So I stopped. Especially when I get to the part that says..  "♫When violet eyes get brighter and heavy wings grew lighter I'll face the sky and feel alive again♫". No I am not on that part yet. I still have dark shadows under my eyes. Still feel the heavy wings and I definitely don't feel alive.  I wonder if I'll ever get there. I am ok most of the days I guess better than a couple of months ago however, I still feel incomplete.. Oh well, I just need to deal with it. I don’t have much choice. Do I?

here's the lyrics of my sad song


♫Vanilla Twilight lyrics

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here




great song.. i know that.. I can so relate to it as well. like you I am also in a long distance relationship. I hope things will work out for both of you :)

January 2011

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